The Process

Ellie continues to struggle more with her breathing.  It is becoming increasingly difficult to witness.  Reminds me of the struggle of giving birth.   The process. 

A couple more thoughts from Ellie's Grandmama:

The privilege has been given to all in the family in addition to all the people Ellie touched with her sweet smile and disposition.  I have felt that I grew by knowing her.  My life is so much richer to have  a granddaughter named Elisabeth Rose Kennedy.

 

The phone just rang and I was able to share with Sandy again how much this special little person will be missed.  The best thing for me was her unique ability to build words.  That one trait just caused me to shake my head in wonder.  How can she do that with such ease?

 

I have prayed that she see angels so many times and I trust that is happening.

 

Give her a kiss and a hug from her Grandmama

 

I am so glad that Barbara acknowledged that everyone goes through the mourning process differently.  And there is no time frame.  Some of us will never completely finish our own grieving process.  Ellie has been on my mind pretty much allllll the time since Thom called me from the hospital when she was 20 months old.  Ever since that time, I have thought of her often during the day and praying for her; encouraging my friends to do the same; sharing her incredible language with whom ever would listen to me.....again.  When Ellie finally passes I will still be remembering her special brand of sunshine and missing her terribly.  She is a part of all of us and I like that.

 

Debi, do you remember when we were all in Richmond?  You, Thom and Ellie had just returned from New York and her Make a Wish experience.  We were at the farm.  Ellie had a bad cold and felt crummy and did not join us.  You stood out in the field and felt so bad that Ellie could not enjoy what you had just experienced.  I said to you that she has missed nothing because no one could give her what you and Thom could.  You gave her total love in a way that no one else in the family could.  You "got" her early on.  And you gave her everything she needed.  I am so proud of you and Thom and your role as parents.